January 23, 2016

2016....decisions, new paths, new journey

23 days into the new year and so much have happened. 

The first day of work turned out to be the  day I set my last day of work. Yes, after much thought and deliberation, I finally found the courage to make the (brave) decision to leave my job. The one and only job that I have known the entire 8 years of my working life. My FIRST job!! 

All throughout the year end holidays, I tormented my mum , sis and friends about my reluctance (?), fear and worry about tendering in my resignation. As I said in my last entry of 2015, the year was not a good year for me, work wise. As the year progressed, the decision to leave became clearer and justified. In the end, the relief I felt when I made the decision was immense. 

Nevertheless, having made the decision, the worry then turned to nervousness and trepidation. How was I going to face my boss? More so especially since I was her PA and she relied on me quite heavily. And so...all through the year end holidays, I rehearsed what I was going to say, I even role-played with my mum. Jan 3rd 2016 was a nerve breaking Sunday. 

Going into work on Jan 4th with my resignation letter in hand, I was a bundle of nerves. I am usually the first person in the office and I had to wait for nearly 2 hours before my boss came in. And when she did...I did not want to spoil her first day back at work with bad news, but it was something that I NEEDED to do. And so, with a deep breath, I handed her my letter and waited. 

I think the climax that I was anticipating fizzled out rather quickly as all my boss said was "Oh ok." I don't know if it was in shock or if she had anticipated it. And she didn't even ask why!! But, having been there for 8 years, I felt the need to give her an explanation; and as we got talking, she praised me for making this "really good decision" and said that, while she would miss me terribly and that I was the best PA ever (!!), she understood my need, reason for wanting to leave. 

While the relief I felt was tremendous, I could not help but feel a bit let down. Perhaps I had anticipated her to fight for me to stay; or bombard me with questions. Alas....it was like a mutual break-up. One which, now that I look back on, was good for both of us. After all, we're related and would most probably see each other at functions. So to part on good terms and being able to remain civil to each other was good.

So I only had to work for around 2 weeks and Jan 22nd was my last day at work. In between those dates, I had attended several interviews, some of which I am still waiting for a reply. I must say that I have been lucky to be able to get several interviews within such a short space of time. I do hope to get a job soon too as I really don't want to be job-less for too long. 

In the meantime, I'll enjoy my holidays; I hope to go out more and socialise; take up a class or join a gym, and most definitely send more time with my family.

2016 has just began and so has the next phase of my life!

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