Saturday "shopping"

Well...the day I've been waiting for the entire week finally arrived. Today, I went out with my sis and aunt to get our saree blouses sewn. My cousin's wedding is to happen in about a month's time, and all the female cousins have to wear a saree. While most (in fact, all) of us have escaped wearing a saree during Deepavali and other functions, we can't escape this time. It is the first wedding since my youngest uncle got married (some 15-16 years ago); and, it is the first wedding of the new generation (i.e. the grandkids), so...it's a big thing!!

I've only worn a saree twice. Once during my coming-of-age ceremony and another time during one of my cousin's coming-of-age ceremony. I've always been reluctant to wear a saree mostly because I think it is a nuisance, and secondly because I'm sooo thin, I'll look like a matchstick wrapped with a cloth!! Seriously, that's how I feel. The two times that I actually wore a saree, people (mostly aunts and oldies) said that I looked nice..etc. Well, they can't very well say that I look horrible during my coming-of-age ceremony, can they?

Even my sister can't escape. By right (or tradition), a young girl can only wear a saree after she has her coming-of-age ceremony. My sister hasn't had hers, but that is not an excuse. With my grandmothers being more open-minded these days, my sister HAS to wear a saree. hahaha!!!

In fact, my grandmothers are being more open minded than us!! They told us not to have our saree sleeves too long (!!) and to also have a nice back design!! *gasp* Plus....they advised us to have bra pads sewn in so that we don't have to worry about bra straps showing...etc! *gasp*

And so...along with my aunt, my sis and I got our measurements taken (I wanted to take a photo to mark the moment but we were so self-conscious, we decided not to), picked our blouse designs, paid the deposit and left.

My sister chose a string crisscross back design for her blouse, which I think is so sexy and modern!! She's going to outshine me!! Plus...her saree is bright pink which will make her look soooo fair!!! As for me, I was at a loss as to what design I should choose. I couldn't make up my mind, so much so that my aunt commented that even she had her designs picked out and I've yet to choose mind. My sister suggested choosing the same design as her but I didn't want to have the same pattern. In the end, I chose a simple design; just three bows at the back, showing lots of skin (this is my opinion!!). My saree colour is chillie red, by the way.

After I left the shop, I started to worry. I wondered whether the choice I made was suitable for me. Would it show too much skin? Was it old-fashinoned? Was it too revealing? What if my spine can be seen clearly? What if I have scars on my back?

All these questions whirled around in my head. Am I regretting my choice? I don't want to regret anything. My sister calmed me down, saying that it was a nice design and that I'll look fine. But until the blouse is sewn and I've tried it on...I think I'll continue worrying. Hmmm....

Now that we've got the wheels in motion, I'm quite excited about wearing a saree. Just the other day, I found a picture of me wearing a saree during my cousin's ceremony, and OMG...I looked horrible!! I had short hair, was wearing a purple saree and had so much make up on!! My mum said I looked older in the picture than I look today!!

I really really hope that I'll look better this time. After all, I've learnt my lesson. I'll use less make-up; my hair is longer now; I believe I look more matured (not older) than I did back then; and...I'll wear the saree with confidence. After all, my mum always tells me and my sis, "It's how you carry your clothes that counts; not what you wear!"

Oh...what a morning!!

If yesterday was hot, today is the total opposite. It's raining cats and dogs here, which made it very difficult to wake up for work this morning. As I laid on my bed, deciding whether I wanted to go to work or not, I watched my mum and sis sleep peacefully, enjoying the cool wind that breezed through the window. Sighs....if only I had that luxury!! Why couldn't it rain during the weekend??

When I reached work, even my colleague commented that he didn't feel like waking up this morning. I echoed his thoughts. I think that if it rains continuously from the night before to the next morning, work should be canceled. After all, it's not everyday that we get rain like this. But then again, with the threat of global warming and climate change, we can expect to have weird weather for a long time to come.

Anyway, I better get back to work. Maybe...if I keep myself busy enough, time will pass fast and before I know it, it's time to head home!! Ahhh.....

50th entry

This is my 50th entry on my blog! Quite an achievement I must say, because when I started my blog, I didn't think I'd have anything to write about. Having (and maintaining!!) an empty blog was one of my fears, hence it took me quite awhile to warm up to the idea of having a blog of my own. I'm actually quite surprised that I indeed have things to talk, rant and boast about. Haha!! So, I congratulate myself!! Hahaha!!

Anyway...sighs...it's almost 7pm on a Sunday and that means, another few hours before I have to go to bed and get up for work tomorrow!! :-( Sunday nights and Monday mornings are the worse. I feel as though another whole loooong week is about to begin and when it actually reaches 5.30pm on Monday, I'm soooooo glad! Feeling like this is bad, I know. But I can't help it. Despite the fact that my first job is actually of a noble cause i.e. empowering and liberating women around Asia, I do feel as though I am missing out on certain things. I studied Law and I thought I'd at least be doing something connected to that. In a way, my current job does involve Law slightly (very slightly) as it deals with women's rights. However, I feel that it is insufficient. I don't know.

I think it's time for me to move on, hence my aggressive search (now you know why I am so happy to have the Internet back on at home). However, finding a new job in this torrent times is like finding a needle in a hay stack. There are many jobs out there, however, most of it require different qualifications from what I have. It's almost always for accounts or IT. Well...I believe in The Secret (TS) i.e. The Law of Attraction, and prayers...so I'm pretty sure my prayers will be answered soon. After all...I've already struck off one "To-Do" item from my New Year list and that's partly due to TS and prayers. So...I'm optimistic.

Well...I'm going to stop here for now. My sister is having her exam tomorrow and I've decided to be nice and do the dishes for her today. I'm usually not so kind but then...since she'll be on a looong holiday in 3 days' time, I'm sure I'll be able to find something for her to do in return. hehe...

Internet back on!

Hello people!! My Internet at home is finally back on!! Woohoo!! I'm so happy because I can finally carry on with my "search" at home and not steal office time and hiding-ly do it!! Haha!!

I'm sure my mum and sis are overjoyed as well especially since my sister is about to have her final exam and that she'll be free for a month after that. As it is, she's already having wihtdrawal symptoms...

And my mum is complaining that she can't FB!! Of all things!! hahaha!!

Anyway...just thought I'd share my good news...

Oh yeah and another thing....I have struck out one "to-do" item from my list that I made for the New Year. And it's all thanks to my Aunty Lita, Uncle Stephen and cousin Jared!! :-)

Internet Out

It's been quite awhile since I last updated my blog. This is partly due to my house internet being down for the past two weeks. Calls to TM Streamyx surprisingly revealed that it was not their fault, but rather my network card/adapter. The customer service people were even nice on the phone. They were pleasant and patient, contrary to what I hear or read in other blogs.

Anyway, nothing much has been happening in my life. I went out last Sat with Trish. It's our usual meet up to catch up on gossips and news about what's irritating us in our lives!! Haha...it's always nice to hang out with someone who's on the same wavelength. Hence, she's one of my beloved 6!!

My sis and mum are practically dying at home without the internet. They feel as though one part of their entertainment world has been snatched away from them. I on the other hand spend about 8 hours a day in front of the computer at work and that's 8 hours of being online too!! So I don't feel deprived at all. In fact, just the other day my sis said that she thinks she's experiencing "withdrawal symptoms". Hahaha...luckily she has internet facility at college.

I've asked my dad to call his friend to check our computer but being dad....that will never happen. So I've had to resort to asking one of my colleagues to help me. She said she can only do it during the weekends, so hopefully, by this Saturday, my internet will be up and running again!!

Well...just a short update. After all, I am stealing some time from work to write this. Hahaha...

sighs....

Friends that I can count on

My mother always makes fun of the number of friends I have. Compared to her and my sister, my meagre number of friends, 6, is a testament to my being unsocial and an introvert. Believe it or not, that 6 is indeed the total number of REAL friends I have. Of course, on my Facebook and Friendster accounts I've got more than 50 "friends" but the majority of them are acquaintances or relatives.

Of these 6, 2 are from high school, 2 from college and 2 from work. Just goes to show how many friends I make, or rather, become close to, in every stage of my life!! And, of these 6, I can even catagorise them. First, let me "name" these 6: YL, SW, TH, HG, ML and MY.

You see, I've been having a rough time these past two weeks. I've been so angry, so frustrated, felt so useless....I just felt low. And during this time, my beloved 6 has been there for me: listening to me complain, comforting me, bitching WITH me. Ahhh....And so, like I said, I can categorise my beloved 6.

SW, TH, HG and ML fall into the 'I'm-here-for-you-and-I'll-bitch-with-you' group, where, I can bitch and rant and just completely lose my head and they'll happily join me (even though they do not know the person I am bitching about personally). They make me feel good. Knowing that I have friends who are always there for me is really comforting; and it feels good coz I know I can trust them to tell me when I am wrong.

YL and MY fall into the 'I'm-here-for-you-and-everything-will-be-alright' group. This 2 don't join me in my rants, but they comfort me by telling me to be positive and that everything will be fine. You could say that they are my version of "Dear Thelma". :-)

And so...despite having only 6 friends, I know that I can trust them. They are a bunch of people with different personalities and I don't think that all 6 will get along if I were to invite them to dinner at one go. However, what I do know is this: as different as they are, these 6 are people I can rely on, be it to cry, rant, bitch or laugh. I just hope that I am someone they can rely on too!!