Being stubborn

Of late, I have been getting increasingly annoyed, irritated, and pissed at my father and his habits. I’ve already accepted, though reluctantly, that I will not be able to change his smoking and drinking habits. The fact that his brother who had stopped smoking for 10 years died of lung/throat cancer has not sunk in his head. He was upset, he “tried” to cut down but in the end, he’s back at it again. As that is a lost cause, I am adamant about changing his eating habit! He has one of the unhealthiest eating habits.

Being a musician for the most part of his life, his entire schedule has been disrupted. The late nights, the late suppers, the smoking, the drinking. Although I’ve given up on the first and latter two habits, the late suppers are something I want, no, NEED to change.

Just yesterday, he had a whole full meal at dinner. Later that night, I saw him eating biscuits. When I told him that he had a whole meal earlier, he said it was not enough! And when I woke up this morning, I found that he had eaten my entire Tupperware (it doesn’t matter if it was a small Tupperware or not) of assam!! The other morning, the first thing he did when he woke up was eat a burger!! Not go to the toilet!!! Imagine that!!

To further add to this, is the fact that he rarely drinks water, although he says he drinks a lot! At home, I don’t see him drinking water at all; he’s always buying ‘teh-o ais’ or ‘kopi-o ais’ or soya bean. When I confront him, he reasons his buying of these drinks by saying that it’s all “less sugar”. To me, it’s not a matter of “less sugar” or anything; water is essential for our body and health. Imagine drinking alcohol the night before, waking up the next day dehydrated and heading straight to the fridge for a ‘teh-o ais’!?! That’s what my dad does.

I’m not complaining just for the heck of it. I want him to be healthy and to live long. As it is, he already has high cholesterol and is under medication for that. But at the rate he’s going, he looks like he’s heading towards getting diabetes as well (my grand-father had it and a few of my uncles too).

He told me yesterday that he’s going for a medical check-up on Saturday and I told him straight that I hope they find that his cholesterol and sugar levels are up. I told him that should they find anything not right, I wouldn’t be surprised and that I’ll tell him “I told you so”!! I know it’s mean of me to say that but I figured that that’s the only way he’s going to be scared and take some action. His words of assurances for the past 5-6 years are mere empty vessels.

He doesn’t listen, or rather refuses to listen to any of us (read: mum, sis, me, his mother) but he rather listen to strangers and friends. I do hope the doctor scolds him this Saturday and gives him the fright of his life. Sighs…

Boring me?

“I am such a homebody. I almost never socialise. Therefore, I am quite picky about going out.”

This is one sentence that I found on my aunt’s blog the other day. I re-read the lines at least twice coz I could relate to it so well!! I AM a homebody. I RARELY socialize. And I AM picky about going out. Ask anyone, especially Trish and she’ll tell you how difficult it is to get me to go out even if it’s just for drinks.

I prefer to stay home, watch TV, read a book, irritate my sister or just lie on the couch and listen to music. I’m THAT boring. I’m so boring that ALL my friends say that my mum is more ‘hip’, more ‘exciting’, more ‘lively’ than me. Instead, I’m like a typical 60-year old grandma (sorry to all the grannies out there), who stays at home all day watching Telenovelas. But…I’m happy being a homebody.

I’m not the type to go for drinks or have dinner with friends or workmates after a long day at work. Instead, I prefer to drive home straight, kick off my shoes, change into something more comfortable than my already comfortable casual clothes that I wear to work and relax.

I’m 26, in my prime 20s. I should be going out partying, socializing, meeting new people, enjoying my life, searching for my soul mate/life partner. THAT is what I am supposed to be doing with my life or so say some people. But is it really necessary that I conform to the social norms of society? “How will I meet my “dream guy” or my life partner when I don’t go out and socialize?” people always ask me. Right now, I’m not interested in all that. I don’t see the need to get married. I’m not looking for or wanting a boyfriend. So what if I have less than 10 friends? I’m happy as I am. I go out when I feel like it. I spend when I feel like it. So how is it anyone’s concern or business how I live my life?

Yes….my life may seem boring – super-boring- to most people but this is how I choose to live my life. If I complain, I can only blame myself. If I am bored, then only I myself can change that.

Nevertheless, I do appreciate everyone who advises me and tries to “bring me out of my shell”.