I want to say so much but at the same time, I can't find the words.
I want to look at your picture and see your smile, but I still can't bring myself to do that.
I dry my eyes before my cheeks can get wet or someone notices. I swallow the lump in my throat before it threatens to give me away.
I still can't pray. I tell myself that I don't blame God for what happened. But I don't know if that is the truth.
I used pray for strength, comfort and positivity. But now, I need to find the strength and courage to return to prayer.
